You know, I feel really different nowadays. It's seems like my life is really breathless. This is one time in my life when I don't feel like I even have time to breathe. Everything seems to be going through a blur and I am so not used to this lurr. Maybe I made the wrong choice, to try get into council 'just for fun', that I 'wouldn't get in anyway'. And maybe I didn't. Maybe I was supposed to grow up through the hecticness, with projects that are meaningful, that are dumb, that don't make sense, that are nice but too tedious to carry out and other things. It's probably my first time actually doing things for the school; I never really did anything for RV D:
Project Work, Teacher's Day, Birthday Corner, Topical Feedback on IHC/National Day.
I hope there isn't anything else. Oh yes.
PROMOS.
This should be the top of my list, but sadly, I don't have time to do my tutorials. Okay, not having time isn't the right word to say... I should be better at managing my times; like spending my breaks doing homework instead of talking, reading on the bus instead of sleeping (which I can proudly say I did today: I read PRIDE AND PREJUDICE), and so on. Heh, but sigh, it isn't. I feel like just anyhow doing everything else 'cause obviously promos are the most important, but funny, I'm plagued by something called responsibility, which I never thought I had before. D:
Responsibility really sucks. Sometimes. In retrospect, whatever. Haha.
Today I saw a primary schoolmate on bus 52. Didn't say hello to him 'cause he probably won't remember me... When I added him on friendster he didn't remember me as well, so what are the chances? Anyway, the thing is: he has grown so much. He is in a polytechnic now, and he's so tall and he looks so mature... People who go to poly, they all look very mature now, like they have experienced so much more.
And I'm here in my uniform, short and fat, with my eyes gleaming with inexperience, and exclaiming about how new everything is to me, still trying to be selfish and doing things only for myself. I realised, no matter how much of a slacker I really want to be, responsibility pulls me out of it and it's quite sad. I can't be selfish now, or at least, too selfish.
I'm summarizing PW now, typing out the morning announcement for the Birthday Corner, reading my mail and the script for Teacher's Day (which is hilarious, thanks to Prav and Chinks!)... The problem is I think I'm swamped, but looking at everybody else, those who are really supposed to be busy, they look totally okay. I guess it's because being in RV cultivated this need for sleep, this need for relaxation, where stress is often felt, but not to this extent. I never had deadlines rushing to me ALL AT ONCE (I finished my homework most of the time... I think.)
I wish I'd grow up and be mature about this, grow up and accept everything without whining, grow up and find motivation to do all this. But for now, I'm just doing things without feeling anything, without wanting to do them. And still I do it. I complete my tasks. Like a robot.
Like a child.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Tired
I don't know why everything is clashing together in the one poor lousy week.
Thanks Actually, PW Written Report to do, National Day stuffs, Teacher's Day planning, Chem SPA...
Thank god Chem SPA went okay.
-sigh- I'm so tired and I feel so drained. You know, I'm really dreading the National Day rehearsal tomorrow. It's until 7, and I have to take the MRT back home. I'll probably try to take it back home myself because I want to sleep heheh. I think I'll screw up the music 'cause I don't really know what to do. The timeline I received didn't have the nice highlight "Music Coordinator" thing there.
I don't know why I'm doing this AGAIN; it's like what I did for Drama Feste which was such a nightmarish and horrible experience. I'm afraid it'd happen again. I'll try my best though, but yeah, I'm just sick of being bombarded. Haha, somehow I was volunteered for Thanks Actually and National Day; so it is clashing tomorrow. I asked to leave early from TA and to go late for NatDay so I would do something for both at least. Or else I'll feel bad.
Eh I want to be as interesting as Xiaxue or something, so I must endeavour to blog more often, and to blog more interesting things and funny stuff. The problem is I don't know what to write and my thoughts are mostly rambling, so there isn't logical flow.
PW is crazy I'm not sure if we can finish it by next monday.
National Day is still scaring me. I'm so happy it'd be over on tuesday. D: Would be better if it was on Monday though. Hahah, then I don't need to go for another rehearsal on Monday. The problem with my job is I have to be really familiar with the programme (which I'm not) and I have to press the buttons at the right time. Sometimes, the computer might lag, so I'll learn to click a little earlier; then it won't lag and the song will come too early. D: every time, different circumstances may happen and stuff so I don't know what I am going to do.
Well, I just have to do my best la. Everyone might hate me if I ruin National Day due to my bad music playing, or me falling asleep at the computer during the concert -snickers- haha, yeah, I'll just have to live with being an outcast for the rest of my life.
I got THREE demerit points for Council so I have to talk to the council teacher in charge. I sincerely, honestly, forgot there was a meeting on wednesday morning, so I didn't go. I was in school since 615 la! I really could have just gone; I nothing better to do anyway, but yeah I really really forgot. D: At most I'll just cry to the teacher lor haha and talk emo shit.
Sometimes I feel a little too emOx for my own good so I'll just forget about it. I feel terrible about all these things that are happening, nervous about both natday and teachers' day, but trying not to think about it and just go for the rehearsal and laugh about it.
I bought the paint and banner for Commzd Birthday Corner already. I cannot go on Sat 'cause I got major PW things, but maybe on Sunday? D: I hate painting so I don't know how I'm going to help haha. Probably encourage them. I look freaking unglam and saikangwarrior when I was carrying the bags !!!
Anyway love everyone, bye. I wish I can be more interesting; give me topics on what to write about? <33
P.S. I miss hugging all my juniors D:
Thanks Actually, PW Written Report to do, National Day stuffs, Teacher's Day planning, Chem SPA...
Thank god Chem SPA went okay.
-sigh- I'm so tired and I feel so drained. You know, I'm really dreading the National Day rehearsal tomorrow. It's until 7, and I have to take the MRT back home. I'll probably try to take it back home myself because I want to sleep heheh. I think I'll screw up the music 'cause I don't really know what to do. The timeline I received didn't have the nice highlight "Music Coordinator" thing there.
I don't know why I'm doing this AGAIN; it's like what I did for Drama Feste which was such a nightmarish and horrible experience. I'm afraid it'd happen again. I'll try my best though, but yeah, I'm just sick of being bombarded. Haha, somehow I was volunteered for Thanks Actually and National Day; so it is clashing tomorrow. I asked to leave early from TA and to go late for NatDay so I would do something for both at least. Or else I'll feel bad.
Eh I want to be as interesting as Xiaxue or something, so I must endeavour to blog more often, and to blog more interesting things and funny stuff. The problem is I don't know what to write and my thoughts are mostly rambling, so there isn't logical flow.
PW is crazy I'm not sure if we can finish it by next monday.
National Day is still scaring me. I'm so happy it'd be over on tuesday. D: Would be better if it was on Monday though. Hahah, then I don't need to go for another rehearsal on Monday. The problem with my job is I have to be really familiar with the programme (which I'm not) and I have to press the buttons at the right time. Sometimes, the computer might lag, so I'll learn to click a little earlier; then it won't lag and the song will come too early. D: every time, different circumstances may happen and stuff so I don't know what I am going to do.
Well, I just have to do my best la. Everyone might hate me if I ruin National Day due to my bad music playing, or me falling asleep at the computer during the concert -snickers- haha, yeah, I'll just have to live with being an outcast for the rest of my life.
I got THREE demerit points for Council so I have to talk to the council teacher in charge. I sincerely, honestly, forgot there was a meeting on wednesday morning, so I didn't go. I was in school since 615 la! I really could have just gone; I nothing better to do anyway, but yeah I really really forgot. D: At most I'll just cry to the teacher lor haha and talk emo shit.
Sometimes I feel a little too emOx for my own good so I'll just forget about it. I feel terrible about all these things that are happening, nervous about both natday and teachers' day, but trying not to think about it and just go for the rehearsal and laugh about it.
I bought the paint and banner for Commzd Birthday Corner already. I cannot go on Sat 'cause I got major PW things, but maybe on Sunday? D: I hate painting so I don't know how I'm going to help haha. Probably encourage them. I look freaking unglam and saikangwarrior when I was carrying the bags !!!
Anyway love everyone, bye. I wish I can be more interesting; give me topics on what to write about? <33
P.S. I miss hugging all my juniors D:
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Presenting...
This is our first movie poster which I hastily did. (:
Anyway, class camp was quite fun, but I didn't really enjoy it 'cause of the stupid antat guy and how dirty and uncomfortable it was. Other than that, it was lovely. I don't know how to elaborate 'cause there are so many things. And I don't have any of the photos! Except for one lovely one that I stole from Cheryl Cheah's blog! It was beautiful and I think she photoshopped it. I want the original though. Oh well, off to photoshop it as well! I'm gonna try to make it look more artistic than it already is! And that's such a tough feat! (:
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Blogged too much
I wanted to blog again but sigh too lazy to upload pictures so yeah, my blog is so boring, I decided not to update first. (: hahaha! this is so not counted.
Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?
Final Fantasy VII
anyway I love Janice she is so nice!!!
Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?
Final Fantasy VII
anyway I love Janice she is so nice!!!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
MRT LADYDOG
This pissed me off for the rest of the day.
Not that I had much of a day left though but yeah.
I met this b*tch in the MRT! She was such an idiot. I was talking to my friends happily in the crowded MRT. It was so squeezy lah! So I, like, knocked into this woman, just a little, by accident. So I turned to her and said, "Sorry," and gave an earnest smile before continuing to talk to my friends. I mean, I couldn't have helped knocking into her that little tiny small bit, because the whole MRT stopped and jerked and that woman was like so near me, 'cause we're holding the same pole.
Then I felt eyes burning at the back of my head so I kept turning to look at her, who kept giving me bitchy looks of death. I just ignored her and continued to talk. Suddenly, her loud coarse voice rang out, "YOUR BAG." Then I turned to her and gave her a puzzled look and said, "Sorry? My bag?" Then I continued to talk to my friends, citing stuff about how my new bag was still stiff 'cause it's meant to be like that, I mean what do you want me to do? Then she again, her voice of death shot from her like a spitball of hair, "YOUR BAG KEEP HITTING ME." I just turned to her and said, "Sorry about it. What do you want me to do? I don't know what I can do." Then she shot me a look of death, one only an old virgin can show me. I mouthed the words "What a bitch" to my friends, Geetha, Rachel Lai, Mel Ng and Mel Chong. Then I said it out loud. They, maybe fearing that she might infect me with that old virgin virus thing, pulled me away to somewhere else, since many people left the MRT.
We bitched about her, 'cause she kept shooting me looks of death. I wonder why? It's really really not my fault la. If she wanted privacy, she should've taken a cab or something. The MRT was crowded and jerky, you really really can't blame anyone. Furthermore, she had some more space to move inside, but she didn't. She insisted on standing there getting knocked ONCE by my bag. Wow. What a great way to be insulting and rude. I felt so stupid about being so civil to her at the beginning 'cause I was really like sincerely sorry; I didn't mean to hit her. Then she became so rude to me.
I only show respect to people who treat me with respect. It's just basic courtesy. I don't understand why people must be bitches; being ugly is not an excuse. Being an old virgin doesn't give you any excuse either. I know 'cause I'm both of them (lol!) and I still managed to be civil to even her. What was exasperating was how she refused to budge, and how rude she was. She was some old bitch la. I know it's childish calling her names like that, but seriously, she was a child within an adult's body. If the world were free of people like her, the world would be so nice now. I have a picture of her; but I'm not going to post it up 'cause she might sue me but yeah I doubt so since she is the one at fault. Tell me and I can show you the picture! (:
In the end, she left the train at Choa Chu Kang which was like where my friends left me, except for Geetha!
Anyway, H3 bio lecture, the first one by the guest speaker was really boring, but it wasn't his fault 'cause I guess the school didn't tell him we already learnt whatever he was talking to us at the beginning. Yeah, the later part was quite cool.
Tomorrow got CHEM SPA. I roughly memorised liao la but not fully memorised. Hahaha, anyway I <3 my class so much. Really lots. Even those people who are in but hate our class. Okay, I don't really lovelove them, but I think they're nice enough for me. At least nicer than the old bitch. D: she really spoiled my mood.
Okay, <3, I grew fatter today I think but yeah whatever. And my thighs are damn sore from training during PE! D: so hard to climb stairs.
Okay my blog is damn boring. I want to be as interesting as erm, XIAXUE, so one day once I get photoshop I will put up photos!!! (: okay bye darlings~
Not that I had much of a day left though but yeah.
I met this b*tch in the MRT! She was such an idiot. I was talking to my friends happily in the crowded MRT. It was so squeezy lah! So I, like, knocked into this woman, just a little, by accident. So I turned to her and said, "Sorry," and gave an earnest smile before continuing to talk to my friends. I mean, I couldn't have helped knocking into her that little tiny small bit, because the whole MRT stopped and jerked and that woman was like so near me, 'cause we're holding the same pole.
Then I felt eyes burning at the back of my head so I kept turning to look at her, who kept giving me bitchy looks of death. I just ignored her and continued to talk. Suddenly, her loud coarse voice rang out, "YOUR BAG." Then I turned to her and gave her a puzzled look and said, "Sorry? My bag?" Then I continued to talk to my friends, citing stuff about how my new bag was still stiff 'cause it's meant to be like that, I mean what do you want me to do? Then she again, her voice of death shot from her like a spitball of hair, "YOUR BAG KEEP HITTING ME." I just turned to her and said, "Sorry about it. What do you want me to do? I don't know what I can do." Then she shot me a look of death, one only an old virgin can show me. I mouthed the words "What a bitch" to my friends, Geetha, Rachel Lai, Mel Ng and Mel Chong. Then I said it out loud. They, maybe fearing that she might infect me with that old virgin virus thing, pulled me away to somewhere else, since many people left the MRT.
We bitched about her, 'cause she kept shooting me looks of death. I wonder why? It's really really not my fault la. If she wanted privacy, she should've taken a cab or something. The MRT was crowded and jerky, you really really can't blame anyone. Furthermore, she had some more space to move inside, but she didn't. She insisted on standing there getting knocked ONCE by my bag. Wow. What a great way to be insulting and rude. I felt so stupid about being so civil to her at the beginning 'cause I was really like sincerely sorry; I didn't mean to hit her. Then she became so rude to me.
I only show respect to people who treat me with respect. It's just basic courtesy. I don't understand why people must be bitches; being ugly is not an excuse. Being an old virgin doesn't give you any excuse either. I know 'cause I'm both of them (lol!) and I still managed to be civil to even her. What was exasperating was how she refused to budge, and how rude she was. She was some old bitch la. I know it's childish calling her names like that, but seriously, she was a child within an adult's body. If the world were free of people like her, the world would be so nice now. I have a picture of her; but I'm not going to post it up 'cause she might sue me but yeah I doubt so since she is the one at fault. Tell me and I can show you the picture! (:
In the end, she left the train at Choa Chu Kang which was like where my friends left me, except for Geetha!
Anyway, H3 bio lecture, the first one by the guest speaker was really boring, but it wasn't his fault 'cause I guess the school didn't tell him we already learnt whatever he was talking to us at the beginning. Yeah, the later part was quite cool.
Tomorrow got CHEM SPA. I roughly memorised liao la but not fully memorised. Hahaha, anyway I <3 my class so much. Really lots. Even those people who are in but hate our class. Okay, I don't really lovelove them, but I think they're nice enough for me. At least nicer than the old bitch. D: she really spoiled my mood.
Okay, <3, I grew fatter today I think but yeah whatever. And my thighs are damn sore from training during PE! D: so hard to climb stairs.
Okay my blog is damn boring. I want to be as interesting as erm, XIAXUE, so one day once I get photoshop I will put up photos!!! (: okay bye darlings~
Monday, July 16, 2007
PIG
I am such a fat pig.
What I ate yesterday:
Lor Mee
KFC Chicken x2
Whipped Potato, or whatever that is, from KFC x2
7-up
Spaghetti - quarter plate
Rice Cake Peanut Butter Cup
Pepsi Twist
Slice of Banana Cake
Maple syrup Cookies x2
Fish Porridge
Fried Shrimp Bits
Tao Suan
OMG. SO MUCH!!! I'm like some fat pig. Let's see what I ate today!
Cheese Egg Onion Sandwiches x2
Soyabean one cup
Thosai x2 with curry and the sour thing
Half bowl of Rice with Chicken and Hotdog, both fried!!
Teh-peng
Micheal Jackson
Two breads: Smart Alec + Mayonaisse Ham Cheese Fattening bread!
A bowl of rice, plus Egg + Veggie soup and PORK LIVER FRIED WITH GINGER!
SO MUCH! And Micheal Jackson is a drink la! I didn't eat him!! It's like soyabean milk + chinchow. And I heard Soyabean is like, spermicide. D: anywayy, meera feels pregnant and so do I! I'm like 15 month's pregnant liaozz la. My fats like have a life of their own. Today Sihao punched my tummy and he said "OMG YOU'RE SO FAT!!!!" D: But whatever!!!! I WILL TURN LIKE HOT AND SKINNY SOON!
School was boring; but I like the chem teacher more 'cause I finally like understand! Tomorrow have Bio Test but I too lazy to study. D: Wed has Chem SPA so I must study definitely but I don't know when I got time lurr. Wed also got some Match Support to watch Trekkers, and sigh, but luckily for me it's like at Choa Chu Kang, so not that bad!! :D Thursday and Friday is like CAMP o.o!! I'm so scared la I don't know what to bring!!! I haven't packed and I'm reaching home at like 8 on Tuesday and Wednesday la.
After school while walking to the MRT, and after a short snack (what a PIG), we, the Mean Girls AU, had an ADVENTURE! Rachel/Regina started squealing and pointing at my file, and I found this green leaf-like bug on it. I calmly swiped it onto the pole thing, and it fell onto the ground. For the next ten or so minutes, we stood beside the bug, scampering so it wouldn't come near, and scruntinizing it, seeing if it was killed. Geetha/Gretchen (omg I just realised my friends have the same first letter as their MEAN GIRLS counterparts except for me D: ) was like omg it's going to be killed. The poor little bug was almost stepped on like a million times, until there was a stampede of humans booming into the MRT and we decided that it must have died. To stop ourselves from feeling worried/sad, we walked away to another carriage.
They refused to touch my file 'cause the bug touched it D: BUT WHATEVER IT'S BIO!!! It's a GOOD OMEN! :D And anyway, today, John Cheo told me to do some design for the To Raffles, With Love board that will come with College Day. The only problem is I don't know what he exactly wants. SMSed him waiting for a reply. (: but anyway, I just read Xiaxue's blog and I think she's hilarious! I really really like her. She's like, my idol or something.
Anyway, done blogging I don't know what to write anymore BYEBYE.
What I ate yesterday:
Lor Mee
KFC Chicken x2
Whipped Potato, or whatever that is, from KFC x2
7-up
Spaghetti - quarter plate
Rice Cake Peanut Butter Cup
Pepsi Twist
Slice of Banana Cake
Maple syrup Cookies x2
Fish Porridge
Fried Shrimp Bits
Tao Suan
OMG. SO MUCH!!! I'm like some fat pig. Let's see what I ate today!
Cheese Egg Onion Sandwiches x2
Soyabean one cup
Thosai x2 with curry and the sour thing
Half bowl of Rice with Chicken and Hotdog, both fried!!
Teh-peng
Micheal Jackson
Two breads: Smart Alec + Mayonaisse Ham Cheese Fattening bread!
A bowl of rice, plus Egg + Veggie soup and PORK LIVER FRIED WITH GINGER!
SO MUCH! And Micheal Jackson is a drink la! I didn't eat him!! It's like soyabean milk + chinchow. And I heard Soyabean is like, spermicide. D: anywayy, meera feels pregnant and so do I! I'm like 15 month's pregnant liaozz la. My fats like have a life of their own. Today Sihao punched my tummy and he said "OMG YOU'RE SO FAT!!!!" D: But whatever!!!! I WILL TURN LIKE HOT AND SKINNY SOON!
School was boring; but I like the chem teacher more 'cause I finally like understand! Tomorrow have Bio Test but I too lazy to study. D: Wed has Chem SPA so I must study definitely but I don't know when I got time lurr. Wed also got some Match Support to watch Trekkers, and sigh, but luckily for me it's like at Choa Chu Kang, so not that bad!! :D Thursday and Friday is like CAMP o.o!! I'm so scared la I don't know what to bring!!! I haven't packed and I'm reaching home at like 8 on Tuesday and Wednesday la.
After school while walking to the MRT, and after a short snack (what a PIG), we, the Mean Girls AU, had an ADVENTURE! Rachel/Regina started squealing and pointing at my file, and I found this green leaf-like bug on it. I calmly swiped it onto the pole thing, and it fell onto the ground. For the next ten or so minutes, we stood beside the bug, scampering so it wouldn't come near, and scruntinizing it, seeing if it was killed. Geetha/Gretchen (omg I just realised my friends have the same first letter as their MEAN GIRLS counterparts except for me D: ) was like omg it's going to be killed. The poor little bug was almost stepped on like a million times, until there was a stampede of humans booming into the MRT and we decided that it must have died. To stop ourselves from feeling worried/sad, we walked away to another carriage.
They refused to touch my file 'cause the bug touched it D: BUT WHATEVER IT'S BIO!!! It's a GOOD OMEN! :D And anyway, today, John Cheo told me to do some design for the To Raffles, With Love board that will come with College Day. The only problem is I don't know what he exactly wants. SMSed him waiting for a reply. (: but anyway, I just read Xiaxue's blog and I think she's hilarious! I really really like her. She's like, my idol or something.
Anyway, done blogging I don't know what to write anymore BYEBYE.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Goals
I am going to do well for promos, but my plan to be consistent and balanced in life has failed. I didn't go to the gym the whole week, I gained weight, my results are less than spectacular, I am not studying this week, I've been trying to do proposals without success due to less than enthusiastic teammates, and yes, I'm ill. Seeing how Victoria has written some goals on her blog, I decided I should put some goals on my blog as well; it might shame me into doing stuff.
Goals:
1. Lose about 3 kg within the end of the year
2. Exercise regularly D: (not specific enough but whatever.)
1. Study really hard, at least once a week hardcore chionging UNLESS I HAVE PW.
2. Put my studies at the top, apart from PW stuffs.
3. Study for all tests; unless there are shits around
1. Do my best for council, but remember to keep the balance. I promised myself it won't become my life, so I will always put myself, my beliefs, my wants first. D:
1. start thinking more
2. decide my direction
3. don't dwell in the past
1. read Harry Potter
2. buy Time Traveller's Wife and another good book, please reccomend!!
3. buy pretty pens to write in the BURN BOOK
4. and yeah
and I'm so pissed off. This is an edit. I cannot see whatever new things I post, whatever new templates I choose, whatever new whatever. RAWR. I have to keep deleting my own cookies to see! SHIT la, anyone knows how to heal this problem please tell me. D:
Okay, edit again, I think I fixed it. Hopefully.
Goals:
1. Lose about 3 kg within the end of the year
2. Exercise regularly D: (not specific enough but whatever.)
1. Study really hard, at least once a week hardcore chionging UNLESS I HAVE PW.
2. Put my studies at the top, apart from PW stuffs.
3. Study for all tests; unless there are shits around
1. Do my best for council, but remember to keep the balance. I promised myself it won't become my life, so I will always put myself, my beliefs, my wants first. D:
1. start thinking more
2. decide my direction
3. don't dwell in the past
1. read Harry Potter
2. buy Time Traveller's Wife and another good book, please reccomend!!
3. buy pretty pens to write in the BURN BOOK
4. and yeah
and I'm so pissed off. This is an edit. I cannot see whatever new things I post, whatever new templates I choose, whatever new whatever. RAWR. I have to keep deleting my own cookies to see! SHIT la, anyone knows how to heal this problem please tell me. D:
Okay, edit again, I think I fixed it. Hopefully.
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